dearest..

the reason why i never hold on to whats not mine is because;
i never stay where im not wanted

the reason why i never call when you don't is because;
i've done it to others before..
but somehow it never seemed like the right time..
every single time..
so i let you look for me when you need me..

the reason why i don't say "i love you" is because;
i don't say what i don't mean.. i look for a special time to slip it in..
to take you by surprise..
and i think "i love you" is supposed to make your heart skip a beat;
once said, and once received..
ouh.. dat makes 2 beats of the heart then..

the reason why i never give hope is because;
i've been on the receiving end before..
and to know that it was all not for real..
really hurt.. i try not to do what people do to me..
besides.. i don't make promises i'm unsure i'll be able to keep..

the reason why i go slow is because;
i want to get to know you well and
i want to get to know you better..
before i take us higher..
before i regret not being able to give you what you think i can give..

the reason why i can't give my heart to you is because;
i don't have one. or more like i can't seem to find it..
and pick it up, wherever i left it the last time..

if only someone could give a heart to me,
then perhaps, just perhaps, i might be able to give it to u..
im not sure IF i would ever get my heart back
but even if i get it back..i can never be sure
IF i could love that way again..
IF i could ever make you feel like you were mine, and i was yours..
IF only i was not scared.. IF only, IF only..
the sky is way too high for me to flap my wings to..
i'm afraid of leaving the ground..
as always.. IF only, IF only, IF only..
i guess we both would never know..