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I was planning to write a lot on New Year’s Eve, New Year’s Day and the days after, but somehow, for reasons I myself can’t recall, I didn’t. I spent the end of 2004 and the beginning of 2005 with the bundles of people who are the apples of my heart. I would love to reminisce the good old times of 2004, but it would take too long and I’d most probably be in tears by the end of it all. But I would just like to say that I’m thankful that I made it through that year, despite all the obstacles that came my way. And to top it all, I made it through as a winner.

2005 opens a new window to a new life. For every mistake I made in the past years, I am determined to change it all. For all the hurt I caused, I am trying to heal those wounds. And for all the bad things I’ve said, I will try not to repeat them ever. This year, I will eliminate as much as possible of all the bad things I’ve said and done. And to all the people out there, I pray for you to forgive me before I turn a new leaf.

There is so much out there that I have not seen, and have not tried, which I would badly love to, and the experiences of the past have taught me a lot about love, hate, pain, joy, and survival. I hope that in times to come I will be stronger, and keep on winning the game. Sadly this year, I will be 20, [in a matter of 1 month and 3 days time, that is!], but for me, it is just numbers. I feel like 16, and I will go on feeling like it, for all I care.

I actually feel like writing a whole lot more, but somehow, I don’t know why I can’t put it down in words. This feeling is a strange one, and I'm not sure why. But all I know is that you cannot take that away from me, and the rest of my heart shall be left unwritten.